NIGHTMARES AND DREAMS

Superhero

2011-08-19T11:14:00.000-07:00

"Yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift, that is why it's called PRESENT"

- Master Oogway

It's been quite awhile since I last blogged. Two words. PURE. LAZINESS. It bothers me and I think those who're reading this on why I even have a blog. I really feel I should just delete this web page from the net. But then again, it's a place where I turn to to rant all the things I've kept inside. I don't really like talking out things. I feel like it's a burden. BUT! I do love hearing people's stories. Just around to lend my pair of listening ears.

Didn't have a good start this year but it's getting better.. I hope. All I want right now is them. My superheroes (and a little cash wouldn't hurt, haha). My Superman and Superwoman. Feels like they're everything to me. So dear. I feel like my life only revolves around them. Feels so comfortable being around them, like I'm more of myself than I am with others. Okay, I should stop. You're probably grossed out, well, so am I. I really should get a life huh. Haha. Sigh. I'm just scared I would be a burden to them. Damn. Okay, yes. I need to get a life. And I need food, fasting month's really taking a toll on my weight. Need to gain. I shall grow bigger so I won't depend on them so much but instead them relying on me. Okay, #1 top priority on my goals. Shall get some nomnomz and head to bed. Have a good night. :)

LOVE~

2011-05-24T00:23:00.000-07:00

": Call me old fashion but to me, a handmade card over an e card, a real rose that fades over a fake rose that is liveless, a love letter over a long text message, a baked cake over a betty croker batter, technology is convenient but tradition though takes time and effort is much more memorable and needless to say, meaningful."

Shahidah Bani.

I couldn't agree more to this. Especially the part about the love letter. I find it remarkably romantic. I've never receive any ( maybe during those old primary school crushes, hahaha. ) but yeshh, I would really want to receive one. But then again, who still does them. We're in the new era, modern age. Maybe, just maybe, I would want to give one to that special someone. If I've gotten a Valentine's gift for my special someone, why I wouldn't write one. (: Alright, I've made up my mind. I shall make one. Soon.. Hehehe.

Aside from this, I've been longing for that special someone. *Sigh* Miss you like really a lot please. D: I guess you're busy, too busy to even make contact. But then again, a simply text wouldn't hurt or take much time, would it? I don't want to say much. I'll just do my best to play my part. Ah~ Depressing~ Haha. Those long bad nights that wouldn't end, it really suck, a lot. You couldn't imagine how emotional I was. And those times when you fall, I'm really afraid that I wouldn't be there to pick you up back again or when you simply need a pair of listening ears.

I've this issue about doubting myself, low self-esteem and loads of procrastination. I want to be more confident. Confident so I'd be strong. Strong enough, so I won't have to be dependable but instead, you to depend on me. Just to let you know, I've never felt so in love before. Neither have I felt so depressed. Damn. I just can't help but to fall for you all over again when our eyes meet. T~T

Gosh, I just miss you can. :'(

You're my first and the last, my one and only.

Mother's Day~

2011-05-07T23:57:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day to all the mother's out there. I LOVE YOU MUMMY! Even though you've caused major embarrassment or being unreasonable sometimes. You know what's best for me and never fail to be there at times when I need someone. Ah~~~ <3

Walking Down The Lonely Road.

2011-05-03T07:26:00.000-07:00

Hey! I'm back.. I bet there isn't even a soul reading this blog. Well, it's alright. I prefer it to be low profiled I guess. I'm just ranting all the nonsensical stuff about how my life goes. I'd rather be complaining here than to confide someone. I realised that everyone has their own road to walk to. It would be just selfish of me to not put myself in their shoes. Though i see my shoes torn and tattered, crying for help, i see many else's worse than mine.

I feel like I'm really living in denial. I claimed that THEY were the ones who was there every time when I needed someone the most. Honestly, it isn't all that true. I mean, they were there. But not most of the time. I know they're busy with life but it doesn't mean they can't be there. But then again, where was I when they needed me the most? Ironic huh. I never felt so selfish in my whole entire life. I guess, I just have to learn and grow up to be more of an adult than to just sit there crying and wait for someone to comfort me like some child, handle worst situations well like everyone elses does.

I really have to grow up. I mean come on, did I ever mentioned that I walked off from my love ones just because I didn't get to send them back home a few days ago?! I feel like a total JACKASS after that. Grrh, I'm absolutely angry at myself. I did that because, I miss them so much. I miss my Superman and Superwoman. Imisshim so much. Imissher too. I guess I got caught up with my own feelings and threw my tantrum then walked off. I feel like I didn't come all the way from school to fetch to be turned off to send you back. T~T plus, I was sick. So wasn't it obvious that I really put in all my efforts to show you how much I miss you? I really mean what I said. Argh, feeling really sucky right now. You guys out there have great night. I'm off.

Basically, the bottom line is, IMISSYOU. <3

MIA~!

2011-04-30T06:40:00.000-07:00

Ohman, i've been MIA-ing since like the prehistoric time! Okay, over exaggeratting much. Haha. Well, I've been working at Starbucks@Tanglin Mall after i did my O's and thank god I made it to Poly. I'm accepted for a 3years course at NYP doing Multimedia and Infocomm Technology, School of Engineering. :) School's started so, I'm doing my best.. to make friends. -__- yes, I know. I don't know how to make one. Atleast, I initiated to exchange numbers and made them sit together to eat lunch. Yes, I DID IT! haha, unbelievebly true.

Running along, life's been difficult. I miss HIM, HER, THEM. A LOT. They're busy with school so I can't disturb. Though, occassionally, I'll text to meet up cause I'm dying to meet them. I feel that I'm depending on them too much. I'm afraid of being clingy. But then again, I only get to see them once in awhile.. *pouts*

I've been having difficulties in sleeping these days ( explains why I'm late for school three consecutive days :/ ). There's so much in my head. So much insecurities. I'm too weak. Here's a confession, i do cry. A lot of times. And i even cry in my sleep! ( WHO EVEN DOES THAT? ) I should really thoughen up huh. Sigh.

Ai ai. Tomorrow's my last day at work! Gonna miss the people there. They seemed to cheer me up when "they" weren't around. Sigh~ It's been a fun journey for me. I've learned a lot from them. :) Gonna miss them. A lot.

I'm. Missing you. A lot more. :'(

Life can be such a pain in the ass.

2010-12-09T05:40:00.000-08:00

Zomg~ It's been ages since I've posted something. Sorry. Been very lazy nowadays~ O level examinations ended a month ago. Hope i did well and will produce a reasonable result. Not expecting anything great. Nothing bad either. Just.. Fairly done..

It's been boring to be stuck at home when I'm supposed to enjoy this holidays. I should be working or having fun and staying out right now. I'm becoming more like great aunt Jenny's gold dentures soaking in water. I should really get a life. More of lively one. But thank God for giving me a bunch of BELOHs (crazy people? LOL) to make life more fun. Haha. Besides that, life's pretty normal i guess, with loads of nagging from my folks and damn frequent chest pains. Shit it.

EXCEPT TODAY! I was very pissed when some couple called me a F*@#er just because took one of their seats. You gave up yours, so it's your lost. I didn't see any elderly or some handicap standing up struggling on the bus ride. In fact, there weren't any except healthy looking young people. Then there you were saying i was uncivilized while throwing vulgarities at me. Who's the uncivilized one now? Ironic much. But i end up giving the seat to a woman carrying her child. The child was so cute~! LOL

Okay, should be going now. I keep starring into blank space. Sometimes, i think so much. So much that I stop thinking and just, stare. *sigh*

ImissYou.

my first time~!

2010-04-25T04:24:00.000-07:00

Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry..I dont know why.. O's i think.. Manz.. It's so pressurizing.. Homework given is too much i guess.. i seriously cut down my only time for myself to do my homework.. I watch teevee only once a week!!! On the computer only on weekends!! And spent most of the time doing homework.. I dont even have time to revise on my subjects.. I seriously wish that the teachers would cut down on the homework and start revision in class instead.. I'm damn slow sia.. How can people cope with this.. Grhh.. God.. Help me please!!!

Okay.. Apart from studies and all, i'm okay with life i guess.. Ups and downs are pretty normal.. to me that is.. HOWEVER, guess what!! It's my first time eating CHENDOL!!! NICE!!!(Y) hahaha.. on top of that, i ordered it with durian!!! DURIAN CHENDOL!!! HAPPY SIOLS.. hahaha

DURIAN CHENDOL!!!

ICE CORN(kacang was sub-ed with corn, lol), DURIAN CHENDOL and DURIAN ICE KACANG!!!

Done!!!

CHENDOL = NICE!!!

DURIAN CHENDOL = VERY NICE!!!

hahaha.. okay.. thats all ah.. bubbye...

P.S: god grant my wishes i beg of you...

WTH!!!

2010-04-16T05:36:00.000-07:00

omg.. students are flooded with hmwk and i cant seem to be focused to do it.. i dont feel like doing it sia.. especially a.maths.. i don't seemed to understand a thing and most of the topics i've forgotten!!! okay.. all.. haiz.. and one of the worst things ever, prelims are coming and goodness gracious i haven't start revision.. die!!! x.x i know it's just prelims but i want to do well for O's and be prepared.. F**k.. i'm gonna put a little more effort though i know whats the outcome is going to be.. i guess it's a little too late for an effing slow person like me.. cb.. mans..

i've been wanting to sleep for hours but don't seem to have time.. all spent on hmwk.. but always miss out a thing or two and end up getting an earful or stand up in class.. ironic right.. stayed up so late but end up getting scolded.. grrh.. what the effing hell is wrong with me.. okay.. i shall go make some time and do hmwk.. seriously need to revise on the forgotten topics..

about life.. i don't know what to feel right now.. i've always been lost from the my primary school days.. i want to prove people that they're wrong.. dont judge the book by it's cover.. never.. maybe i did but never.. *giggles* i wish i could push myself without any help.. nevermind.. slowly.. okay i shall go now.. bubbye~ :( - :/ - :| - :) - :D - XD - XP

i feel like a burden to others , like an obstruction. why sia? i hate me..

Curses!!!

2010-03-24T07:34:00.000-07:00

these few days have been a lot for me to handle.. major loads of hmwk and a whole lot of naggings or scoldings.. a pause of time would do just great.. i wish life was simple and not be so complicated.. maybe this is why i haven't found the true me due to laziness to find out.. but i like discovering something new when the time comes.. i know i have major commitments this year like the O's.. i feel like i'm not focussed yet.. i feel like i'm too slow.. i failed alot of test for CA1.. i GOT A SINGLE DIGIT a point forty for a.maths, failed chemistry and got a score lower than what i'm suppose to get for e.maths since ive done it for O's last year.. HUGE DISAPPOINTMENT!!! i hate it... why am i slow!!! nbcb!!! í'm like losing hope.. trying to persevere and hope it would end soon.. T-T life's such a bi***!!!

i was really taken aback today.. my teecher made a very demoralizing statement to a classmate of mine infront of the whole class!!! i was shock.. he told that she will fail her O's with her absence in school.. major set back!!! it was so not needed!!! seriously.. do he even know what she have been through?! life isn't fair or easy for her you know.. i'm frustrated with the comment he gave.. i believe it was more of a demoralizing statement than reverse psychology.. i felt a huge slap on the face eventhough i wasn't the one whom he said it to.. i feel for her.. looking back.. maybe i deserve the huge loads of hmwk and scoldings for failing the tests.. i sulked the whole day thinking of alot of things..

wanting to say life is so unfair, i should really jump off the building.. no, serious shit.. life is unfair... haha.. i pity for those who have to juggle things in life at one go.. they're merely humans.. still a TEENAGER!!! they shouldn't be going through all of those.. grrrrhhhh.. i guess now i would just believe in them and help them go through this stupid shit... get over and done with asap.. motivation=hardwork=good education=good job=greatlife!!! woots~~

tired and sleepy.. goodnight and toodles... tc

happy/sad?? I dont know...

2010-03-18T08:10:00.000-07:00

wah.. i hate this feeling.. it's like being lost but happy at the same time.. at the end, you don't know what the freaking hell you're feeling at all.. haix.. so many problems lingering my mind.. LOST.. T-T sometimes, friends is an aid to relax after living a stressed up life.. it's like eating chocolates at your saddest days.. everyone one has problems, same are similar and same are different.. but the saddest things is that they either don't want to to share the burden with someone or just can't find a suitable someone to be their shoulders to cry on and be their listening ears.. what can i do.. nothing.. i feel like an obstruction or just a burden.. i even have my own problems that i can't even solve, yet, having an intention to help others.. what should i do???

if i could just get to them to open up, i would really want to be what they really want.. maybe the reason behind this is that i might be going through what they are and trust me, it's goddamn hurtful.. maybe i don't understand what they're going through cause i'm not in their shoes.. but at the very least i could do is to understand them.. it's what every kid in denial wants someone to do that..

i hope that they'll open up and share with me.. if the problems can't be solve, at least they have friends by their sides to go through thick and thin in life..

P.S:- oniichan's coming home soon!!!

-EPEPEPEPEPEPEPEPEPEPEPEP!!!!

chocolates are sinful!!!

2010-03-08T06:40:00.000-08:00

OMG!!! today was fun!!! went to amk hub to pick up Hilary's dress with Kit and Ikahh Ziiee.. FUN TO THE MAX!!! ouh ya.. i got choked by green apple jelly, *curses*, and accidentally spit it out! Unfortunately, it landed on Hilary's purse!! HOW EMBARRASSING WAS THAT??!!! *blush blush*

okay.. we walked around amk hub and all of us was tempted by food cause we were saving up for good reasons.. Oo oo.. i survived on chrysenthemum tea (omg, hot to spell??) green apple red tea, a nugget, couple of fries, ice-cream and a little piece of papaya, kiwi, strawberry and banana!! so proud of myself...

okay so i was saying, then we decided to have a sweet treat (ice-cream) instead of eating ichiban sushi which was not halal.. i thought i was non-halal *giggle* joking.. okay let the pictures do the talking!!!

P.S: we patch up friendship sia.. so glad.. thanks everyone who helped..

updating!!!

2010-03-07T01:36:00.000-08:00

HELLO!! *wave hands vigorously to you* hehehe.. must make grand entrance.. okay went for saturday class yesterday.. didn't make use of it cause i didn't learn a thing.. i SUCK at a.maths.. grhh.. nevermind.. i will do my best to study hard.. i want to promise that!!! *blazing eyes!* hahaha.. went out after that with DWENZERS , CUTIE PIE and CANDY PIE!!! so fun la.. haha.. abit epic though cause went all the way there just to eat mac donald's.. hahaha.. then went to SSC to DAISO.. window shop shop shop.. played with the trolley and the things there.. took pics and hang out... so fun!!! want to do it again!!!

tmr is lil bro's birthday so.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance to him.. then big bro is going NS the following day.. sad sia.. haix...

okay that's all.. still wondering should i make up for the thing i did or should i just ignore it.. haix.. i dont want to be a bad ass.. arghh.. sheesh.. i think i've got the answer in my head already........ :(

OMG!!! FINALLY!!!!

2010-03-05T07:15:00.000-08:00

omg!! hi people.. sorry for not updating my blog.. well, as promised.. i will; from now onwards.. yay!(Y) so many things happened!! but want to share one only.. for now that is.. ahahaha..

well.. i'm in sec 5 and my batch of express and normals students last year have graduated!!! yay for them.. boo for me.. ahaha.. lots of things that i miss so much.. bandmates and schoolmates.. however.. life is not always unfair.. i found back my old friends!!! i miss them!!! DWENZERS, LYDIA, KIT and ATIKA!! lol.. lovelovelove them..heeehheee.. unfortunately.. life is kinda unfair most of the time so.. you know.. i got to a bad start of the year.. haix.. nevermind!!! i will try to be optimistic!!! (Y) haix.. so not the usual me.. me and my dumb blonde bimboticness.. ouh well.. moving on...

a.maths a.maths a.maths.... who the heck created it ah.. so darn diff .. hate it alot!!! must go for extra classes already.. and apparently i got class tomorrow.. so i go first okay!!!

P.S: oniichan's going to NS!!! missing him!!!

cheers to a new year!!! will update soon!!! bubbye!!!

a new come back!

2009-04-09T05:58:00.000-07:00

HEY EVERYONE!!!
sorry for no been posting for a very long time.. been very BUSY lately.. busy with band and struggling with studies.. trained very hard for syf this year.. brought my French Horn everywhere i go.. played at home till dont know what time but still, result wasnt what i expect it would be.. been so busy with it till i forgot that band is all about team.. if one falls, everyone falls.. well, i fell.. and so did others.. im SORRY!!! i cried like a mother lost her child.. even cried in my sleep.. i dont think i should hide it.. im a human being right.. if we're sad.. we show it.. why keep it inside right?! hee... well.. since we failed to achieve what we wanted, i will definately strive for the better.. i wont let my beloved ones cry again.. so jia you everyone.. WE CAN DO IT! DONT LISTEN TO WHAT OTHER PEOPLE HAVE TO SAY ABOUT US OR WHATEVER CRAPPY SHIT ALRIGHT!! YAY!!!

okay.. for studies ah.. damn it.. struggling with A.maths nia.. but its okay.. will improve on it as time goes by.. hee.. thats all la.. i just came back from playing frisbee and showered already.. wanna sleep now.. hee.. byebye!!!

03/04/09 <3 oops... hehe...

2009-03-14T06:34:00.000-07:00

finally, a song! [:
insomnia by craig david.
i personally don't like it, but raja likes it and he is bugging me to put it on his blog.
well, okay.
p.s memory failing, it took me 4 times to get into his blog.
crap. hahaha.

My Apologies

2009-03-07T01:50:00.000-08:00

So sorry peeps.. its like since forever i didnt post huh.. sorry ya.. my bad.. was concentrating on exams nia.. i think it really paid off.. :) .. heh.. been sad now days.. feel like i betrayed someone ba.. not telling you who.. but ya.. sad.. wanna cry.. :( .. haha.. weeeee..... okay.. now that exams are over.. will be concentrating on band right now.. must serve with dinstinction.. haha.. follow school rule cause i good boy.. NOT.. haha.. ouh ya.. wana score well for O level mother tongue this june.. Ahh.. DIE I TELL YOU.. haha...

grhh.. D is sad nia.. GB,GB,GB.. Fark them la.. wtf la.. walao.. grhh.. stop it sia.. haiz..

BAD MOOD ALREADY YOU KNOW.. haha.. okie cookies.. until next time ah.. wanna shower and then sleep til next morning.. haha.. i know la.. im a LAZY ASS****.. haha.. what to do.. bye!!!

updating.. FINALLY

2009-02-09T02:20:00.000-08:00

heyhey.. sorry never update.. lots of things to do la.. especially HOMEWORKS!!! argh.. stress i tell you.. haha.. well.. have been very tired this week.. apart from academic work, theres band.. working pretty hard to achieve silver/gold for the SYF.. so ya.. tired..

my daily routine:
school,
eat,
homework,
religious class,
eat,
homework,
sleep...

the cycle will like go on til like 10years later.. haha.. lazy ass.. okay.. had fun too la.. went to watch the OPSS concert play.. nice le.. the graduates only.. small but MIGHTY!! haha.. ya.. then talked with DJ about a girl, that has split personalities i guess.. one moment she like him, another moment she says she like me.. haha.. kaykay.. dont talk bout it.. scary...

ouhya.. DC has been throwing his sad face all around sia.. not ham lor.. someone says his a gayboy.. sad.. but i think nothing about him hits the word.. sad for him.. he's hot,cute,ham and many many many more to learn about him.. must find out more about him sia.. haha.. STALKER... yupyupyup.. hmm.. thats all la.. must get ready for religious class.. so tired!!!

New blogskin!

2009-01-26T04:30:00.000-08:00

Helloooooooo.
New blogskin uh, ahahaha!
i don't know if raja will like it or not.
but i like it.
-forces raja to say he likes it-
okay. bye~!

my belated b'day

2009-01-26T01:04:00.000-08:00

hi peeps.. haha.. MY BIRTHDAY was yesterday you know.. haha.. thanks for your wishes to those who wished me.. love you guys lots.. okay.. lets sumarise up things yesterday.. well, receiced lots of birthday wishes.. woke up and went vivo city with cousins and me aunt and ate dinner at fig and olive.. food there was superb sia.. haha.. walk walk walk.. then ate supper at mac.. aunt azian's treat.. hehe.. was so full and i can asure you that i was like a fat pig sia.. haha.. went home.. and ate chocolate mousse for my birthday cake.. though its small.. but it was worth buying as it was owishi!! and the cake wasnt wasted like previous birthday cakes for past few years.. haha okay.. pics ah.. lazy to talk ah..

mummy and aunt azian

amy, ameerul and ME

morrocan chicken with olive rice!! nice le!! the veggies was so fresh!! oinions was yucky!! haha

well, had a pack of day.. thanks eveyone.. muuaacks!!!

sigh...

2009-01-17T07:46:00.000-08:00

hey.. long time never update.. no time la.. haiz.. its been very harsh this year.. lots of new stuff to handle and all.. trying my very best though.. i know i very weak la.. sad.. haha.. but nobody gives a damn about it.. sadder... haha

well bloggy.. i really wanna pour out all my problems to you.. i really cant take the heat this year.. isit the things around me have changed or isit that ive changed and grown weaker? life is really mystery huh... haha.. ive always wanted to ask why i was born in this world and what would i do to make a difference since im no good in anything..

to tell ya the truth.. im just a big burden to everyone.. when im down.. i cause lots of misery.. when im high.. i will tend to hurt someone.. nothing seemed to go well.. never mind not going my way or anything.. i just dont wanna hinder my friends with their life or something.. haha.. ive always wanted to give happiness to all, help pass on the kindness or just wants peace for all.. but.. FAT HOPE.. haha..

ouh ya.. i almost forgot.. i keep intruding into peoples life.. not only that.. i might even cause world war 3 between friends.. hee.. but some how.. i just dont wanna change.. or rather i dont want the things around me to change.. i like it the way it was and things was going smoothly.. or i just wanna be a invisible and watch how other peoples life is so great.. haha..

maybe.. i should be like the old me.. quiet and not disturbing anyone.. smile when people laugh.. be silent and hear peoples sorrows and not giving stupid advices.. haha... maybe its greater that way huh..

i would care to know the answers for my questions if you or anyone would tell.. but you know what bloggy.. i will try my best to make not only mine but others life easier okay.. thats my promise to you okay honey bunny..

i just want to die.. T.T

another side of me

2008-12-20T23:10:00.000-08:00

hey.. manage to blog despite my crazy busy nooby life.. haha.. went to night safari last night with family plus obaa-chan.. really great.. the scenery was like how the white mans would say "awesome!!".. haha.. but the very first thing you would get is the smell of MOTHER NATURE!! haha.. its pocket full of DUNK.. haha.. but i think i smell nicer than mine.. hehe.. obaa-chan said the dunk is full of nutrients.. and wanted to take back some for her garden.. haha.. after the site-seeing went to eat very very late dinner around 0030hrs.. ate til i felt that i dont have to eat for a week.. haha.. sent obaa-chan home at yishun and decided to overnight there.. reached around 0200hrs.. sorry B for making you wait then didnt manage to talk..

this is the part where i found a side of myself.. i found how vulnerable and weak i am without the important people in my life.. i really find myself such a coward and a big cry-baby..obaa-chan bring the stronger side of me and i really feel the warm heart of hers when shed mountain loads of tears on her lap.. she told me to be strong, keep moving on and be patient.. she told me how lucky i am to get such a crazy, wonderful and a wanted mom and a dedicated step-dad who sacrifice his life to give us food and shelter.. so blessed with such wonderful parents. she told me how lucky i am to get such a crazy, wonderful and a wanted mom and a dedicated step-dad who sacrifice his life to give us food and shelter.. so blessed with such wonderful parents..

i would really like to thank all the people that help me go through my crazy and wonderful life.. sorry to be such a burden to you all... AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gwaahh!!

2008-12-15T00:21:00.000-08:00

hey.. so long never update.. okay.. been through a lot these days.. from adventures strolling around Singapore, till got scolded by someone i dont know because of acting like small kid, to a heart warming family visit.. and through out this journey, well never thought life would great or bad, you got to enjoy it as much as you can before it's too late..so enjoy peeps!!

got this from DJ.. a quiz that i'm so lazy to do.. but it's done!!! check it out!! took me an hour or so doing it while eating lunch.. hehe...

#1 The first person who tag/pass you is?
DJ
#2 Your relationship with him/her?
My bestie/ bandmate/ schoolmate
#3 Your impression of him?
Cool, cute, sociable
#4 The most memorable thing he/she had done for you ?
Not sure le. LOL
#5 The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
I forgot.. T.T sorry
#6 If he/she become your lover, you will ?
Haha, he’s a male duffess.
#7 If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be ?
NEVER..
#8 If he/she become your enemy, you will?
Try to mend our relationship back together ?
#9 If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be ?
I don’t know. Hope i don’t do anything to make him that way..
#10 The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is ?
Go out with him!!! Holidays are ending please go out with me!! I don’t want go school!!
#11 Your overall impression of him/her is ?
Cute, adorable, gooffy and I love him!!!(as besties la!!)
#12 How you think people around you will feel about you ?
I don’t know. Hope it’s good..
#13 The characters you love of yourself are ?
Caring for other people ? And not myself. Hee
#14 On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are ?
Being so skinny, naive, gullible.. alot more i guess
#15 The most ideal person you want to be is ?
The most perfect bestie, son and a brother
#16 For people that care and like you, say something to them ?
I LOVE YOU TOO!! GOD BLESS YOU!!
#17 Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you. Pass to people with blogs only.hmms! Random order!!
Do at your own will!!
1.Artiqah
2.Evelyn
3.Briano
4.Chin Wen
5.Lydia
6.Sabila
7.Dan-nee-chan
8. Joyce
9. DJ
10.Dinah
#18 Who is no.6 having relationship with?
With me!! And the HBFs!! Beties forever!! haha.. i guess no one la..
#19 Is no.9 a male or female?
MALE!!
#20 If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Oopsy. I think it’s the greatest thing I would wished for them but… idk..
#21 What is no.2 studying about?
CHEMISTRY!!!
#22 When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
Last night.. with E-chan
#23 What kind of music band does no.8 like?
I’m not sure but she likes panic at the disco’s songs and the songs that ccs band plays!!!
#24 Does no.1 have any siblings?
Yup..
#25 Will you woo no.3?
No.. He’s my guy-friend plus a great bestie someone would beg for!!!
#26 How about no.7?
Same as the above.
#27 Is no.4 single?
Nope. Attached!!
#28 What is the surname of no.5?
I don’t think she has one.
#29 What 's the hobby of no.10?
I don’t know le.. I didn’t ask her before.
#30 Does no.5 and 9 get along well ?
Of cause I guess..
#31 Where is no.2 studying at?
Canberra Secondary School
#32 Talk something casually about no.1.
She loves him as much as he loves him!! I guess..=3
#33 Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?
I’m not sure.. shssh.. secret!!!
#34 Where does no.9 live at?
Admiralty.
#35 What colour does no.4 like?
YELLOW!!!
#36 Are no.5 and 1 best friend ?
YES!!!
#37 Does no.1 have any pets?
She has a fish..
#38 Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
Yup.. you bet he is.. sexier than those models on the run awy and most likely the whole wide world!!
#39 What is no. 6 doing now?
Thinking about me!!! haha joking la.. not very sure...

BAND CAMP ! ! !

2008-12-04T04:05:00.000-08:00

O ! M ! G !

band camp was so fun la.. had it from2-4 dec.. and i seriously enjoyed it.. my first time ever liking a camp.. well , actually not.. i love BAND CAMPS for like the three years in my secondary school days.. lots of stuff happened le.. tell you in details okay...

Dec 2 (1st day)

i was really excited la.. took cab to school cause was kinda late.. boarded with B,E and DJ. our bags were huge la and was like pressing our faces against the windows la.. haha.. no la joking only.. but we made it in time.. had games. but i was one of the facillitators.. sad.. no biggy.. it was success.. muahaha.. BUT YOU KNOW SOMETHING??!! of cause not.. like DUH i havent told you yet.. haha.. okay.. i MUST CUT MY HAIR DURING THE BAND CAMP LA!! sad sia.. only the fringe.. kinda stu*** sia.. now need pay barber $7 just to cut fringe.. waste money only sia.. had drills and pratice of instruments for like HOURS.. haha.. but good for us cause concert coming up TOMORROW!!! after dinner got haunted house sia.. fatin made me cry sia.. sad.. scary ah.. she was one of the ghost and she scared me out of my wits.. i cried like a baby and screamed like a girl sia.. manage to finish but barely survived.. haha.. this is a FACT!! secret ah.. shssh.. haha

Dec 3 (2nd day)

had a bad night.. had the high fever sia.. sick like want to die.. luckily got B to take care of me sia.. love you man.. by morning it subsided ah.. went to SAF CENTRAL BAND le.. so happy , excited and sick la.. we played for them two pieces and they show gratitude by playing two pieces too.. then combine both band together to play our pieces.. so honoured to take a seat beside them.. ARGH!!! god.. really happy sia at that time.. bid farewell and went back school for concert rehearsal.. after that like free time sia.. we played volleyball and captain's ball.. fun but only lasted for an hour.. we all ran out of juice la.. no energy left in us.. food is like an hour to go and it really felt like a day had past just to wait for food.. and when the food came , ate like pig sia.. so hungry.. haha.. had promotion test after that but i think i gonna fail ah...

Dec 4 (last day)

so tired.. had breakfast and rushed to hougang primary to do some high elements.. so fun sia.. but cramps were like everywhere.. sad.. Vanessa got scared cause i shook the CRC section when pairing up.. T.T .. GOMENNASAI!!! haha..

that was about all.. still sick and tired ah.. now.. i wanna take 40 winks and prepare for the concert in my dream.. i hope it wont be a nightmare... oyasuminasai!!!

busyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ! :D

2008-11-24T03:01:00.000-08:00

yay , haha . posting now .

okay , raja-sama have beeeeeeen really busy for this past few days .

today had band uh , played like overture ? :D

he can play ! haha .

yeah , and after lunch went back band room to make some gifts for

the band exchange tmr !

i don't think raja-sama is looking forward to it ,

CAUSE HE LOVES HINATA MORE !

hahaha , don't be too sad man ! yeah , so ..

somedays ago , went *scape studio to jam also ,

brought our instrument to practise too :D

kind of fun . haha ,

yeah , so don't blame him for not blogging uh ?

:D byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

-highlyaddictive-crap.blogspot.com ; B-chan :D

2008-11-16T03:56:00.001-08:00

hi people.. so long never update le.. haha.. sorry.. nothing much happened.. only had some down moments.. lost my specs in the deep waters of siloso beach le.. sad de.. got new one already though.. black and white!!haha.. nothing much to say.. ouh ya.. people.. keep smiling and stay strong! Gambateh! Oyasuminasai!!!

I look so funny!!! damn it!!!
I love her!! my girlfriend!! haha.. random picture sia.. haha

randomness!!!

2008-10-29T04:29:00.000-07:00

nothing much today.. slack all day long.. getting fatter by a second.. haha.. yay-ness!!! i want to weigh 60 kilos and reach as tall as 1.8 metres! all the best to me!( although im like 45 kilos and I'm still 1.7 metres and a long way to go!) and ya.. im under weight! grr!! damn it.. haiz.. these are some of my random talks.. don't mind me.. hehe.. but seriously.. i hope to achieve what I've mention.. gambateh!! hai!! okay random pics to show ya all!!! yay!!! woohoo!! more random talks to come!!!

me and bella.. anything in common?

ooo!!my own shop!! wow-wee!!

hot right?! got it from my mama!!

me and chinwen.. stuck in my jacket.. green leh!!!

I'm a ninja!! yay for me!!!

okay.. so random can?! haha.. me and hbfs had a conversation a few days ago.. its about the 12 zodiac la.. Dj said that he was a little late coming out to this beautiful world.. and said he was born on the year of the rooster cause his big day was 5th jan.. and for me.. they say i was born in the year of the monkey cause mine was 25th jan.. so i decided that i should go do some research like a good boy.. and guess what.. they are wrong!! Dj darlx.. you are born in the year of the dog la.. and me , rooster.. sad.. thought i could be different.. but i am actually.. to be exact.. I'm kind of a gong gong de.. ill work if you feed me, ill study only when exams are like tomorrow and ill be nice if you are my friend.. so ya.. that's me.. but i have a soft spot in me.. and its HUGE in my heart.. once you are mine.. you'll always be... =D

TOODLES!!!

i dont know what to do

2008-10-22T05:12:00.000-07:00

what a week i had.. loads of fun was trashed at me.. haha.. talked horny stuff with friends.. went jalan raya and open house.. it was really a enjoyable week to end my school days sia.. haha.. went to sungei buloh today le.. wake up with mummy to cook french toast.. haha.. hope it was tasty guys and girls.. got comments ba.. miss tay wants my french toast for breakfast everyday.. i dont mind.. but i told her that too much of french toast will cause her to be FAT! then she quickly change her mind.. haha.. picnic at sungei buloh.. walk walk walk.. eat eat eat.. haha.. got bitten by the mosquito.. there is so many bites at my right elbow.. so ugly la!!! fed up sia.. Eileen, my classmate, apply oinment on me and it disappear!!! thanks so much darling!!! went back to school by bus.. so comfortable that i fell asleep.. dont know was it Alex ong's shoulder or was it the air-conditioned and cozy chair that was comfortable.. haha.. reached school and bad news was brought upon me.. ms tay will NOt be my form-teacher anymore.. feel like crying.. after so much happiness and then this news ruined my day!!! i feel so scared and lost sia.. i dont know what to do.. she is like the best teacher ever la.. she is very special!!! i love her.. my god-mom.. haha.. tomorrow is result slip day.. result will be return to us.. hope i did well.. and i hope you did well ya.. all the best kays.. thats all for now...

p.s: im feeling scared and lost right now.. T.T

haiz...

2008-10-15T05:00:00.000-07:00

what a tiring day today.. slept at 9 yesterday and i couldnt wake up.! what the hell is wrong with me sia?! sheesh.. went school as per normal but thai kids went into class for math lesson.. and guess what.? my stomach growl.! embarrassing much got la.! haiz.. got back e.maths.. passed.. got back mother tongue paper and i passed.. got physics and geography too and i passed.. my a.maths.. failed.! haiz.. stupid la.. five down and three more to go.. hope will pass with flying colours.. haaaa.. got band after that.. mediacorp came le.. they might wanna get us to perform for the arrival of president le.. dont know why la.. haha.. dont practice anthem for winds and percussion til 6!! more tired.. then sad.. got headache.. then walk out of school.. HBs wanted to have dinner.. then people started touching me.. dont really like it you know.. was quite sad.. touched me til i rolled on the floor.. my face faced the drain and it was freaking smelly!! bite my lip just to strengthen my will to stand up while enduring the touchings and all.. bleed bleed bleed.. sad sad sad.. and then had a conversation with inner me...

me: pain pain pain!!

inner me: its just a small wound. why so cry-baby..

me: well, youre not the one whos enduring it you know.. how would you know..

walk across to bus-stop..

inner me: dont be such a stupid ass and go back la.. sissy isit?

me: SHUT THE HELL UP CAUSE PEOPLE ARE LOOKING AT ME AND I DONT WANT PEOPLE TO THINK IM CRAZY!!!

silent atmosphere..

well just wanna say im sorry you guys.. so sensetive.. i just dont like people touching my.. you know.. and didnt went dinner with you guys.. not feeling to good just know...

okay.. thats all.. so sorry.... T.T

Finally Back!!!

2008-10-11T21:14:00.000-07:00

hi people!!! so long me never blog ya.. sorry la.. must concentrate on final year exams la.. now so stress waiting for results.. haiz.. hopefully will pass with flying colours.. and to you too who is reading this.. lots of stuff have been going on lately.. cause of EXAMS la.. stupid.. cause me to break down(im not a cry-baby okay!!), and even made me fought with my parents.. HATE IT!!! haiz,, not to mention having weird dreams too!!! wow ya.. hee.. so long never go band already.. MISS BANDMATES SO MUCH la.. my frenchhorn valve stuck le.. HOW TO PLAY?! so irritating sia.. well nothing much to say really.. then heres a BIG thnk you for the friends who help me.. HOPE YOUR EXAMS WILL PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS YA!!! AN TO ALL YOU GUYS OUT THERE.. SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

CUTE PEOPLE!!!

2008-09-13T11:38:00.000-07:00

CHEEZ BROTHER!!!
CHEEZ!!!
WHATS UP?!!
SQUEEZEE LA...
TIME TO SLEEP PEOPLE!!! WHAT SEE SEE?? WE WANT TO SLEEP LA...

hey hey.. me and family went to ikea at tampines.. bought loads of stuff that belongs to my parents and me siblings.. none was mine!! sad case.. not my place to shop ah.. but nice to look around by the way.. after that we went to geylang.. of all the places??!! sad case again.. bought things for raye.. but this time i got to buy socks!! finally!! something that belongs to me!! and i got to replace those worn offs and got hole ones in the shelf.. maid!! throw them away!! muahaha!! joking only la.. must throw away myself la.. think i got maid isit?! not that rich okay.. so tired right now.. went home and bathe.. blogging right now.. post me siblings pics.. cute aren't they? ^_^ like the big brother right?! haha.. kay.. its about all.. going to eat breakfast(sahor).. then sleep.. nights people!!! *cough cough*(yup, not yet recover.. another sad case...)

pass by .

2008-09-13T04:50:00.002-07:00

hellooh . im just a no one blogging here .
and i helping him to post uh .
[ without his permission , sorry ]
haha , okay , raja is still sick now and tired .
probably sleeping now [:
haix , he really stress now uh , because of his results .
and i can really feel how it's like !
so sorry if i have offended ever since i sent that message
of mine . hahah !
get well soon my dear ..
takecare <3

signing off ,
( you know who ) ; TAG ME BACK .

another day of my life

2008-09-12T07:00:00.000-07:00

hi! got band today.. tired!!! Zzz.. want to sleep.. haha.. played Anthem for Winds and Percussion and The Phanthom.. played until my lips so tired.. cant blow a thing.. come out nonsensical sounds.. flat notes.. sad.. after band went to break fast with J,B,E,Au and DJ.. ate mac spicy and E couldnt handle it.. almost breathe out fire.. LOLs!! went home after that.. reached infront of door and guess what.. no ones home and i havent got my keys from mummy.. sad.. waited for them at the void deck.. for 50mins.. sad.. luckily not 2 HOURS!! haha.. got la the expirience and so didnt like it.. haha.. okies cookies.. up til now only.. wait til next news.. hehe.. news reporter Raja signing off.. or rather coughing off..(sad havent recover..).. byes!!!
Proud CSS BAND LIBRARIAN & SECTION LEADER(FRENCH HORN)!! AND MEMBER TOO!!

Another day of my life

2008-09-10T08:21:00.000-07:00

thanks B.. for blogging for me without telling.. i know E do that to you,then do to me.. haha but its okie cookies.. this blog is free to my friends to blog.. okay enough.. sick here.. cough like wanna die sia.. did english hmwk and it took me like years to finish it!! but im done with it.. now blogging.. coughing.. chatting.. coughing.. watching teevee.. coughing.. okay okay.. im scared im diagnosed with tubercolosis.. scared.. cough til come out blood.. scary.. but thank goodness i only cough like crazy only.. haha.. hope to get well soon.. thats all for now..bye!! *cough cough!!*

IM NOT GREEN LANTERN HERE (:

2008-09-09T17:34:00.000-07:00

selemat pagi ! (:
hahahaha , okay .
superman here is trying to save the blog .
anyway ,
green lantern is currently sick here ,
so im helping him to blog ...
hahahaha .
he's too tired to blog , lol.
yesterday had band and he went home so tired bah .
then he slept after that i guess (:
GET WELL SOON OKAY GREEN LATERN ,
need the power of your ring (:
takecare <3

my saturday... zzz

2008-09-06T08:07:00.000-07:00

good evening everyone.. raja here.. nothing much really happened today.. spent the whole morning watching tv and chat in msn.. then me spent the whole afternoon sleeping in cozy bed.. lazy like pig nia.. sleep,eat,sleep,eat,sleep,eat.. haha.. woke up and bathe at 7 and then break fast.. ate ananas cafe's nasi lemak set b.. so nice la.. or was i just hungry.. haha.. ate like i never ate nia.. then had to drink cofffee with milk.. i so dont like coffee that is bitter.. like it sweet.. sweet tooth youre talking to.. hehe.. craps craps craps.. spent quality time with family.. watched rugrats go wild together with them.. and now blogging about how i spent my whole saturday.. well ,enough about me.. im so boring.. what about you.? how did you spent your day.? better than mine right.? but who cares, your family's yours and mines mine.. and they rock and not to mention rule my life.! yeah! well.. thats all ive got to say nia.. hope you have a great time.. bye!!

signing off!! :)

Auzaie's Big Day!!!

2008-09-05T06:57:00.000-07:00

A&A couple

Artiqah and Birthday boy Auzaie His lovely GREEN cake

today is my beloved Auzaie's birthday.. which i totally forgot and B just reminded me yesterday!! totally STM!! so sorry dude.. must eat fish oil thinging right.? E totally ss with her lighted candle but got blown off by DJ and J. haha.. dots.. very full to eat his cake and felt like vomitting so just ate a little of it. then went home, straight away to the toilet and do BIG business.. haha.. cannot take it la.. i think eat spicy food.. so delicious!! well that's it for now.. love everyone out there!!

words of appreciation

2008-09-04T05:57:00.000-07:00

hello!! raja here!! i would like to say thank you so much to my lovely E, who is my junior and not only that but also my Bestie!! thanks so much.. words could not describe how wonderful this piece of hardwork and sweat that has been put up by her.. also, i wanna say thanks my deary B, for guiding me through this brain-cracking, head-exploding and never ending process of making this blog.. thank you so much.. only god knows how happy and greatful i am to have such good besties like both of you!! (plus the rest too la!! :P) THANK YOU so much.. showering you guys with my love!!! :)

hi! waves

2008-09-03T09:40:00.000-07:00

hello, hello, hello!
okay. i'm still not raja.
here's the blogskin i've edited.
i don't know if raja will like it or not..
but it's very, very, very green.
well..
-masqueradeof-love,
au revoir, mon ami!

E

2008-09-03T07:09:00.001-07:00

ah, in order to change blogskin, i must post.
test, test.